Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Countdown to Hip surgery!

Well I am 2 weeks away from my total hip replacement and am getting even more excited...not scared but really excited about getting this underway and getting back to my life and my body! We traveled to California this weekend to visit friend... my husband thought it was a good idea before I went under the knife. It was, I guess, simply because I got to relaxed...but I'm sick of relaxing! I gained another 2 pounds, haven't exercised, attempted to play golf in sunny California but it was too painful! The entire traveling experience was very eye opening...for the first time I travelled with a disability and was unable to help my husband with the luggage. I was totally dependent on him for everything, but I did get to preboard and use the blue "disabled" sleeve for my ticket. Oh well, back to work today. Working a full day is really exhausting as is doing laundry, grocery, cooking and doing dishes. I am too independent for this and really struggle with all of these difficult emotions I am experiencing at this time--especially the anger and frustration. My only solace is knowing that there will be an end to this pain, dependence, and tremendously "old" feeling that I have. I truly do not know how people can put this surgery off and continue to live like this!

Monday, February 9, 2009

Quality of life countdown....more on the hip saga!

Tried to beat the winter blues this weekend when the forcast gifted us with a 60degree sunny Sunday with no plans on our books. Excited about our 11:40am teetime, so I got up early, worked out in the warm water pool and got ready to play some golf for the first time since last November! It was breezy and the last remnants of snow and ice were melting at the course we chose up in Fowlersburg in Carroll County. It felt so good to be outside, sun beaming on my face and actually playing some golf! I was hitting the ball pretty good for the first time out, nice and straight...what a blessing - this saved me from walking all over the course trying to find my ball. About an hour into the round I began to fatigue and my hip really started hurting...I loaded with some more Advil and Tylenol (now way past my daily maximum dose) and it was only 12:30pm! I tried to be stoic, especially for my husband whose love for golf far surpasses most men's love for their wives...but the pain became very distracting. We wrapped it up after nine holes and road home through the scenic wintry countryside soon melting from the warm temps. Oh, well we tried...another love of my life (golf) on hold until after the hip surgery...which by the way has been moved up a week until March 24 due to the surgeon's schedule change. I just pray I'm not too fat and too inactive by the time my recovery is over! Is anyone out there living my life?

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Could have danced all night, but...

Another lovely cramp in my lifestyle happened this past weekend due to my hip arthritis. I invited my husband, brother, sister and daughters out to a local bar to see our mother's doctor who just happens to play lead guitar in a rock band. They play pretty decent dance music and I really love to dance especially when the music inspires me. Well, after a couple glasses of wine the second set came on which was all dance music from the 80's... I got thru the first song almost, rested...another half hour later tried to dance again and only made it halfway thru because my hip really started hurting and I could hardly bear weight on it...another 20minutes later the only slow song of the night began so I slowdanced with my husband (one of my favorite things) and payed the price all weekend. So most of the week I've been hobbling around with my cane and doing the absolute minimal. I am not a minimal kind of person. Can't wait for the surgery!

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Edit on Curious Case of Kren K.

Let me correct my first post. I meant to loosely compare my woes of feeling so old physically, yet being so young psychologically to Benjamin Button, not Benjamin Brat, portrayed in the movie by Brad Pitt. Oh well, best to get my true self out in the open from the getgo, that's me Karen, Queen of Blunders!